Moment of truth...

  • if you saw your problems in a pile with everyone elses you would probably grab yours back.
  • all that really matters is that you loved
  • growing old beats the alternative--dying young
  • your kids get only one childhood.
  • forgive
  • frame every so called disaster with these words "in 5 years will this matter?"
  • no one is in charge of your happiness except you.
  • get rid of anything that isnt beautiful, useful or brings you joy.
  • Dont compare your life to others, you have no idea what their journey is all about.
  • its ok to let your kids see you cry.
  • Make peace with your past so it doesn't screw up the present.
  • Your job won't take care of you when you are sick; but your family will, keep in touch!
  • Just keep taking that next small step.
  • Life isn't fair, but it's still good!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Walking along a fenceline...








I know that I am not the only one who feels this way sometimes, I know that its normal to question yourself and your morals, standards, ethics and it probably is actually healthy to touch base with that occasionally. However, lately I feel like all I do is question myself, why is that? I feel like every aspect of my life are fighting against eachother...this internal battle, no one thing ever wins or gets close enough to cancel any other, but its constant fighting pulls at every angle.

I've never been in a situation that i didnt' really know what side I was on, what stand i would take or what option I would fight for. I have been listening to a song a lot lately, like obsessively, and usually when I get stuck on a song or lyric or movie or whatever it is because I need to figure out the message that is lying in the lyrics, words or whatever. Here are the Lyrics I have been so stuck on the last few days....so much so that its running through my head constantly, and always in the back of my mind.

walking along the fenceline

got my hands in my pocket, got a million things on my mind
well Im not sure what im tryin to find
so i just keep walking , knowing it will come with time
walkin along the fence line.
The Song continues and continues to make me think about everything. I just want someone to step in and tell me whats going on and what to do, but I know I have to just keep walking, and know it will come with time.


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Some of my simple pleasures....

  • My garden
  • flowers-not cut flowers, real live ones, especially in my yard where they are growing and beautiful
  • making lists...honestly i do enjoy making lists, even grocery lists or things I need to get done...I know its dumb!
  • Backyardigans
  • smelly-good candles really do make me happy
  • photography. I love it, all of it!
  • cooking-yeah not really the usual breakfast, lunch, dinner routine, but I do enjoy cooking in general!
  • Good Book
  • writing, it doesn't much matter what, even just a journal or a few lines of thoughts here or there, i just enjoy watching ink and paper turning into thoughts.
  • a nice hot cup of coffee
  • a pretty sunset on fall evenings
  • bottle calves...(i know dumb, but they make me smile!)

Places I DREAM of going...

  • cuba
  • Russia
  • A Deserted island with Casey
  • Back to Germany
  • Austrailia
  • Ireland