Moment of truth...

  • if you saw your problems in a pile with everyone elses you would probably grab yours back.
  • all that really matters is that you loved
  • growing old beats the alternative--dying young
  • your kids get only one childhood.
  • forgive
  • frame every so called disaster with these words "in 5 years will this matter?"
  • no one is in charge of your happiness except you.
  • get rid of anything that isnt beautiful, useful or brings you joy.
  • Dont compare your life to others, you have no idea what their journey is all about.
  • its ok to let your kids see you cry.
  • Make peace with your past so it doesn't screw up the present.
  • Your job won't take care of you when you are sick; but your family will, keep in touch!
  • Just keep taking that next small step.
  • Life isn't fair, but it's still good!

Friday, October 30, 2009

pumpkin carving












This year in our garden we grew bunch of pumpkins. The kids have been wanting to carve them basically since the first blooms set onto the pumpkin vines! Finally it is Halloween time and they got to carve their pumpkins. Jaysen and Brock did everything by themselves, including the (very nerve racking) cutting of the faces. Carter did an Excellent job getting the "guts" out, and as you can see from Kennedi's face, she wasn't overly impressed by the pumpkin goo. They all had an excellent time and were all pretty proud of their pumpkins.
Halloween is approaching so fast...we have yet to get much planning done, i am secretly still hoping that it snows that 2 feet and we dont have to dress up or go trick or treating...im sure I wont get so lucky! Jaysen wants to be a Vampire or a Football player or a "men in black" Brock wants to be a wrestler...and the littles, could care less! I think kennedi is going to be a wyoming cowboys cheerleader and carter ... well, maybe a devil. No one ever know until the day of what they end up dressing as.



Random...

Me...
My little Farm Boys, Jaysen and Carter helping dad in the tractor.Carter at the JR bullriding...very interested!



Carter in the Bathtub...everyone has to have a shampoo mohawk at some point!!!






Monroe, our family Dog






Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Happy Birthday Casey!!!


Today is Casey's 30th birthday... Happy Birthday! Casey is the most dedicated and hard working man I know. He is a loyal father and family is his life. I could not ask for a better parent for my children or partner for me.

Him being 30 years old means he was MY age when we started dating. Which means i feel a little old! lol we have had 5 great years together, learning from eachother and sharing our lives. we went from 2 people in a relationship to being one joined couple. Our life together is whole and I couldn't ask for more. I look forward to many more wonderful years together, sharing so many things as we get older...

From Jaysen, Brock, Carter, Kennedi, and I...Happy Birthday, we love you!!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

just some random pictures of the fam at the lake

Carter Jackson this year Kennedi Alysse at Springer lake this summer...

Carter July 4th 2007

Casey 2007



Carter 2007~he kept taking his "lil swimmer" off and sitting in the water lol






Its always just the "simple" things...


Ever notice, that no matter how crappy a mood you are in or how bad a day you had or are having, a simple beauty (like a rainbow) can take your breath away. You always have enough positive left inside you to appreciate its beauty. You always look and it makes your heart smile even if its just for a second.
This morning was one of those mornings (and unfortunately, im quite sure the morning has only barely begun) after waking up throughout the night with my two youngest children, the alarm went off at 6am as always...i drug myself out of bed and woke Jaysen to get ready for school. Its all I can do to not be grouchy at him just for making me get up so he can go to stupid school...I mean Jeeze, he is 7 years old shouldn't he be able to get up and get ready all by himself? (*joke*). Kennedi(they youngest and only girl) then woke up, soaked from head to toe...had wet the bed, obviousley. got her up, cleaned up, bedding changed, laundry started, and again wanted to tell her how ridiculas it was that at ALMOST 2 years old she is still peeing in her crib!!!! This is the point that Carter woke up,
"mom, mom, ,mom" (not even a paause for me to respond)
"what, Carter"
"i want some juice"
"its time to get up Carter"
"I can't"
"why cant you?"
"cuz I peed and I am wet"
FOR CHRIST SAKE.....
one more stinky bedroom, one more dirty kid, one more unneeded load of laundry, and one more reason for me to be totally annoyed...and then it occured to me...
My children are my rainbow. they are my light at the end of the darkness, they are the reason for me to smile and find that last little bit of positive and just be thankful for the beauty in front of me.
Jaysen is 7 years old, he gets up at the second you tell him it is time, he dresses himself and gets all of his things ready for school BY HIMSELF. He prefers to eat at school so that saves me the time cooking him breakfast, he always finished homework at school or on the bus making more time for us at home to do the things we want to do. He really is a good kid! and it isn't THAT bad getting up at 6am!!
Kennedi is 1 she will be 2 on Dec 30, and she is potty trained...no more diapers, no more poopy messes to clean up, no more wipes to worry about, and sheesh she just looks so dang cute in her big girl panties!!! She is not even 2 i guess maybe i should be thankful that the only mess i am cleaning up is a wet bed!!!!!
Carter is 3, kids are kids, and they have accidents right? he never has an accident except in the night...he has a smile that would melt anyones heart and a personality that would make anyone crazy. He is such an individual and for that I should be thankful and not get upset by the small things that they do....they are all still just kids and my days with them as children are numbered.
I guess my point in writing this is to open my eyes and cherish the things that my kids are doing at this point in time. Find that last peice of positive and embrace it because all the negative in the world wont let me enjoy the youth of my children...and its not a long term time period....~Find your rainbow today and embrace the positive~

Monday, October 26, 2009

Cake Drama....




ok, so i decorate cakes, or at least I try to...




Wednesday (yeah as in day after tomorrow) is Caseys 30th birthday, I am having a "family" dinner party for him that evening and can not decide on a cake to make. He wants a "female anatomy" cake, but i would rather do something a little more appropraite for the family get together...so I'm left with a day to not only decide on a cake but prepare...UGH. I have done a lot of different things but really want this one to be special. I am getting a little nervous and freaked out to say the least...




My options are a Wyoming Cowboys cake...which I have done before, but could do a lot nicer one now, a hunting themed cake, which i have also done before, but could do differently, or to come up with something totally different.




I would like to do something totally different as it is his 30th birthday, and of course i want it to be super special, but the question remains...WHAT SHOULD I DO!?!?!?






Sunday, October 25, 2009


Our life can only be discribed as beautiful chaos.

Casey is 29 years old and works for Wyoming Haybusters as a truck driver/Hay Farmer. He is a hard worker and a dedicated father. He enjoys hunting, bowling, and building things. He is currantly remodling our house and his work is amazing.

I am 25, I am a stay at home mother and hope to return to school in the next few years after our youngest child starts school. In the mean time I enjoy Scrapbooking, photography, and gardening.

We began our journey 5 years ago and since have grown to a family of six. Jaysen(7)is in second grade, Brock(7) is in first grade, Carter(3) started pre school this year. and Kennedi will be two in December. With 2 adults, 4 children, 1 dog, 1 cat, 1 ferret and 2 fish there is never a dull moment or lack of entertainment. As i mentioned, it is always chaos...beautiful chaos.

This blog is our life, our daily happenings and events...my own personal journal of our family...hope you enjoy it!

Some of my simple pleasures....

  • My garden
  • flowers-not cut flowers, real live ones, especially in my yard where they are growing and beautiful
  • making lists...honestly i do enjoy making lists, even grocery lists or things I need to get done...I know its dumb!
  • Backyardigans
  • smelly-good candles really do make me happy
  • photography. I love it, all of it!
  • cooking-yeah not really the usual breakfast, lunch, dinner routine, but I do enjoy cooking in general!
  • Good Book
  • writing, it doesn't much matter what, even just a journal or a few lines of thoughts here or there, i just enjoy watching ink and paper turning into thoughts.
  • a nice hot cup of coffee
  • a pretty sunset on fall evenings
  • bottle calves...(i know dumb, but they make me smile!)

Places I DREAM of going...

  • cuba
  • Russia
  • A Deserted island with Casey
  • Back to Germany
  • Austrailia
  • Ireland